Yes as always Cancer sucks, if I could beat up Cancer I would and it wouldn't be pretty either. To many lives have been cut short due to this horrible disease and that right there is unfair. I try and tell people about, spread the word but the sad part is if they haven't been through it they just don't get it because I didn't prior to Bryson going through it.
We have lost so many friends, it's heart breaking to watch these families suffer to be told that there is nothing more can be done. How can a parent or loved one try and accept the fact of their child dying right in front of them, I mean really the thought makes me literally sick to my stomach so I can only imagine what these families go through when they hear those words. People don't understand why I get so emotional about hearing this news of people that we have met in our journey Bryson is doing great but it hurts my heart knowing that their child isn't doing good at all.
Yes I am blessed but in the back of my mind and I mean deep back there I am a scared mama, cancer is an evil disease that doesn't give a damn who it gets and to say that I will never have to worry well isn't the truth. If Bryson gets sick worry, if Bryson gets a bruise worry, when Bryson goes in for blood work, worry, when Bryson gets BM aspirate worry. It's only natural for a mother to worry for their child but this extra added worry is no good but there is nothing I can do about it. The journey we have been down hasn't been easy and I want to make sure that he continues to go down this new road, if I have to call his doctor every day, I will.
I want to pray for several families that are going through that battle right now and let God give them strength that they so need. At the end of the day we should all be thankful for what we have!!!
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
He is a copycat..
It's funny and amazing when your toddler does things out of the blue, that you yourself has done not even thinking that they are paying attention. As parents I think we take a lot of what our children see for granted not realizing that they care. That's why I believe in fighting less and loving more so Bryson can see that it's the way that we are and he can take that mental toddler note so when he gets older he knows that above anything else he was and will always be surrounded by love and the right to tell how he feels, he deserves that and we will do our best to make sure of that.
Yesterday as him and I were headed to his 3 month check-up, we were about to get on the freeway and at the same spot cars think its ok to make two lanes out of one. Both Tim and I hate this so of course we get mad at the cars for cutting us off thankfully as we both don't use profanity. Well Bryson started yelling NO CARS. NO CARS....he he yes I was laughing it was pretty funny but at the same time I was like how does he know to do that, OH yea duh. I wasn't mad I thought it was pretty darn funny but it made me think what else is he picking up that we wouldn't want him too, thank goodness we don't use profanity around him. Like someone once said this is the age that they are like sponges they take everything in and then use it on later.
No I am not going to ask for the Mother of the Year award, I let him stay up late on weekends, he eats chesse balls, he is not potty trained and he still sleeps with me but what I do know is I want him to grow up knowing what is right and what is wrong, to be a leader and not a follower. I want him to be able to be creative, to see the world, to come to me whenever (I thank my mom for this she has always been there, I would always tell her what was going on there was never any hiding things from her).
I know great things will come of him, he truly is special in my book he has such the sweetest heart and I always want it to be that way. I think about October 1 2007 the day I found out I was pregnant, BOY have things changed I wasn't ready to have baby either was Tim but we got ready and the day Bryson came into this world will forever be the greatest day of my life, the love I have felt in the last 3 1/2 years has been over flowing. It's a miracle to watch him grow, change and become an independant toddler he is funny and just melts my heart when out of the blue he wants hugs and kisses. Everyone who comes in contact with him falls in love with him because for being 3 he is so tender and caring and yes I will take credit for that because I hug and kiss him all day long and tell him how much I love him and that I would do anything in this world that he wants.
Yesterday as him and I were headed to his 3 month check-up, we were about to get on the freeway and at the same spot cars think its ok to make two lanes out of one. Both Tim and I hate this so of course we get mad at the cars for cutting us off thankfully as we both don't use profanity. Well Bryson started yelling NO CARS. NO CARS....he he yes I was laughing it was pretty funny but at the same time I was like how does he know to do that, OH yea duh. I wasn't mad I thought it was pretty darn funny but it made me think what else is he picking up that we wouldn't want him too, thank goodness we don't use profanity around him. Like someone once said this is the age that they are like sponges they take everything in and then use it on later.
No I am not going to ask for the Mother of the Year award, I let him stay up late on weekends, he eats chesse balls, he is not potty trained and he still sleeps with me but what I do know is I want him to grow up knowing what is right and what is wrong, to be a leader and not a follower. I want him to be able to be creative, to see the world, to come to me whenever (I thank my mom for this she has always been there, I would always tell her what was going on there was never any hiding things from her).
I know great things will come of him, he truly is special in my book he has such the sweetest heart and I always want it to be that way. I think about October 1 2007 the day I found out I was pregnant, BOY have things changed I wasn't ready to have baby either was Tim but we got ready and the day Bryson came into this world will forever be the greatest day of my life, the love I have felt in the last 3 1/2 years has been over flowing. It's a miracle to watch him grow, change and become an independant toddler he is funny and just melts my heart when out of the blue he wants hugs and kisses. Everyone who comes in contact with him falls in love with him because for being 3 he is so tender and caring and yes I will take credit for that because I hug and kiss him all day long and tell him how much I love him and that I would do anything in this world that he wants.
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